Stack of dirty dishes

Thinking about a ton of things again today.
Started when we pretty much all got woken up from a dream. It was weird. I’ll go cut and past what LO wrote into her blog later but here is how it was for me. I was hanging out with someone who was supposed to be representative [...]

Maybe not so strong right now

I chickened out of Take Back the Night. I went and sat in the cafe, no one had really showed up yet. 15-20 mins passed and I was starting to get really anxious. Eventually I just couldn’t hold out any longer. This place is so small. I’m already feeling really down [...]

Tell me why again?

Ugh why did we get out of bed today? I just want to crawl back in.
If I didn’t have to go meet up with my project partner/coordinator/whatever. I probably would have stayed in bed a while longer.
Feel like everything inside me is going to explode.
We can come up with an excuse for the little one’s [...]

Hurts too much and so afraid

Finally really cried for the first time in a long time. Maybe not as much as when I had to turn my pets over to my x but, pretty close. The first time in a long time that I cried for me and not for someone else.
I kept wondering how and when did [...]

Suffocating

Don’t know why, just feel like I’m suffocating a lot of times.
So many things going on in my head.
Right now watching this thing on Pablo Escobar. I probably shouldn’t be but …I always find myself doing it. It’s a part of my history in a way. I grew up with that in my head [...]