Update of sorts

I’m feeling so much better. They cayenne pepper is working wonders lol.  Also making sure to keep up on my fruits and veggies which I hear might help too (though I swear I was eating them like crazy).  Have doctors appointment on Wed (sorry kind of a note to self in case I lose time…more [...]

Blah…exhausted

Been battling stomach problems again! Only this time I think I have some clues. For some reason whenever I get these stomach problems I want Thai food really bad, it’s been like comfort food ever since I left there (exchange program in 2001).  That’s when the stomach aches really started too. The other night my [...]

Underground

It’s a pretty nice day today so I’m able to stay on my laptop a little longer.  *shakes fist at the fan that’s dying*
I feel like there is all this stuff I’ve been wanting to write about, wanting to get out. It’s all gotten bottled up though. I did write a little in my paper [...]

Take a second and do some good with your Saturday!

I was just popping in for a minute to check a few things before I have to shut down (too hot, forgot I need the laptop until at least Wed. so fan not fixed yet.) so, I was just reading the new post that come up with the tag surfer and came across something really [...]

Not a happy camper

My computer is on the fritz or something.  I think, I hope, it’s just the fan.  I tried one update thing that people where saying might fix it, it worked while it was updating haha! Then it went back to the way it was before. So, now I’m trying to muster up my braveness to [...]

Overwhelming Day

Some days I’m fine. Some days I’m in denial. Some days…I’m totally overwhelmed.
I woke up last night with an upset stomach, panicked, managed to settle down and get comfortable again. Thankfully it’s somewhat passed. I woke up in the morning though just down. It’s not been very sunny so that didn’t help.  I decided to [...]

My Life: The Movie

So yesterday I was talking about being triggered out really bad and feeling like I’m in some bizarre first person  perspective movie.  My life just feels like a movie much of the time.  I think a lot of people probably feel that way from time to time (maybe due to normal levels of dissociation or [...]

Triggered Out

Figured I’d try to write this while I’m in it.  Woke up today feeling rather icky then started thinking about some things started to try and find some more info and ended up triggering myself out even more.  Ok, so what the heck am I talking about?
A trigger can be anything really and there are [...]

Having doubts about therapy

I was up with this for a long time last night. I went to my appointment and just left not feeling quite right about it. Well, it actually didn’t hit that it didn’t feel right until I had, had a whole PTSD induced panic attack.  I called a friend just to talk to me as [...]

Feeling like a blob

I feel so restless yet vacant at the same time today. It’s really frustrating me. I keep trying to do all this stuff on the internet and just feeling like I have no attention span. I keep jumping from one thing to the next and totally forget what I was doing in the first place.
I [...]