Posted on July 29, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
**could trigger Dark Alters, SI, general anger at everyone, mother shit, oh cursing possibly**
Pretty sure Dth is back. So We’re shit up a creek if he really is. not sure how he got out.
sorry typin one handed because well….
Pretty sure we’re dead. Yup can’t feel so gotta be dead. still bleed…it was an accident…but dont [...]
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Posted on July 28, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
I was going to say no pants since my brain doesn’t wear pants…that I’m aware of.
Anyway, back from my therapy session and there is so much to say. The problem is me though…my brain is killing me! One of the really hard parts for me is wanting to learn and my insiders wanting me to [...]
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Posted on July 27, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
Well, made it through blogathon. It was really great, still getting caught up with a few other bloggers I was interested in reading. One of the hard things was not talking about DID. Since I was blogging on my general survivor site and that’s not something I care to reveal there since I do let [...]
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Posted on July 24, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
Well someone else asked about this and I know I meant to update my own experiences so I thought I’d try again using the explanation I gave this person as a jumping off point. Here is what I said with a few tweaks thrown in to explain how DID fits in there (I was explaining [...]
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Posted on July 23, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
Lots of times I wonder just what the hell I did wrong to get the response I did from my family. Lots of times I think maybe I’m just blowing things out of proportion, lots of times I think that’s what others will say too me. I don’t talk about things because I get the [...]
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Posted on July 22, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
I should sleep. Been going to bed late for the past few nights. I just am feeling all screwed up body clockwise/bodywise in general tonight.
I did some more EMDR today er…yesterday now. Strengthening some system connections so, it was pretty much after that that things felt screwy. Not necessarily in a bad way just things [...]
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Posted on July 11, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
Just when everything seemed to get done the dreaded blackouts strike.
So here I am behind on a ton of things and I don’t have the energy or motivation to do it. Bottom of the cycle again.
I need to keep up with my paper journal better maybe that would help with some of the things I [...]
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Posted on July 1, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
I’m having a difficult moment. The day has been really rough. This is really the most present day I’ve had since last Tuesday and right now I’m trying to just find that little hiding niche right now because I’m just so exhausted from today. The last few minutes have been really difficult due to mom [...]
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