So, this is the video:
I was sitting there watching this and trying to think of one single meaningful relationship where I really felt that the other person was right there with me. A relationship where I felt like I was heard and understood, cared about, empathized with, etc. I suppose I somewhat had that with my Grandmother but I don’t think I had a relationship that really fit the description until High School. I think I’ve mentioned this relationship before a bit and how much it has impacted the rest of my life.
It’s strange though because I’ve been back in touch with that person and I don’t really feel that way about the relationship anymore. I’m not entirely sure how I feel but, it’s definitely not the same. I’ve been really thrown as to what to do about it, if anything at all. Right now I guess I don’t have much time to worry about it. I have to many other things going on in my life and I guess thanks to that experience back in High School I know this is not the end of the world if I need to let go. I think I will always in some way love this person no matter what (and maybe that’s a good thing, maybe a bad thing) but I know this person is not the LAST thing. I know I am surrounded by people who truly love and care for me & vis versa.
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