Posted on August 19, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
I almost always feel like I’m saying the wrong things in my outside life but now I realize I often find myself saying the wrong things in my inner world as well. It makes me feel awful and I don’t know how to change it at the moment. I’m not sure how to describe it [...]
Filed under: Dissociative Identity Disorder, Multiplicity, Trauma, Verbal abuse, abuse | Tagged: caring, caring for self, cycle of abuse, Depression, Dissociative Identity Disorder, emotional abuse, emotional neglect, Emotional Personality, emotions, sad, self-esteem, self-worth, talking to self, Trauma | 3 Comments »
Posted on July 29, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
**could trigger Dark Alters, SI, general anger at everyone, mother shit, oh cursing possibly**
Pretty sure Dth is back. So We’re shit up a creek if he really is. not sure how he got out.
sorry typin one handed because well….
Pretty sure we’re dead. Yup can’t feel so gotta be dead. still bleed…it was an accident…but dont [...]
Filed under: Dissociative Identity Disorder, Mom, Multiplicity, SI, Self-Injury, Verbal abuse, abandonment, defective, family | Tagged: anger, blame, Dark Alter, death, emotional neglect, mother, punishment, self-worth, SI, worthlessness | 2 Comments »
Posted on April 11, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
Holy…I was reading through some old post/comments wow I cannot spell for sh!t! haha! Anyway, I never did that post on guilt did I? I can’t remember very well the last time I posted, seems like I always have something I want to post and then I get ‘distracted’. I got distracted on the way [...]
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Posted on January 21, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
This week I had my appointment on Monday which ended up really great, I needed the day to chill.
Just started out with saying that things have gone back to usual for the most part with my mom and I. We aren’t really talking but I’m less angry. I still feel like I’m walking on egg [...]
Filed under: Dissociation, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Flashback, NPD, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, PTSD, Therapy, Trauma, Triggers, Verbal abuse, abandonment, abuse, body memory, covert, defective, multiplicity, sexual assault | Tagged: abuse, amnesia, anger, art, blackouts, body memory, covert abuse, DID, disfunctional family, Dissociation, Dissociative, Dissociative Identity Disorder, emotional abuse, Fibromyalgia, healing, memories, New Therapist, PTSD, secrets, sexual abuse, sexual assault, strength, telling, Therapy, Trauma, Verbal abuse | Leave a Comment »
Posted on November 22, 2008 by MeMyself&Who
I have all this stuff swirling around in my head (was struck down by what might be an inner ear virus causing extreme vertigo but that’s not the swirling ) today. I thought maybe it was done swirling after I sorted out some feelings that popped up during a slight panic attack but, [...]
Filed under: Boundaries, Just life, NPD, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, PTSD, Trauma, Triggers, Verbal abuse, abuse, covert | Tagged: Boundaries, C-PTSD, chaotic family, complex PTSD, covert abuse, cycle of abuse, death, denial, disfunctional family, emotional abuse, emotional incest, family, Friends, Narcissistic Personality Disorder | 1 Comment »
Posted on November 3, 2008 by MeMyself&Who
I just got back from my new therapist…and…I really think this could be it. She was really nice and ok, I know this sounds maybe wierd but she has STUFF in her office!! lol! No that was the one thing that creeped me out a bit about my last therapist was there was literally nothing [...]
Filed under: Dissociation, Dissociative Identity Disorder, NPD, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, PTSD, Therapy, Trauma, Verbal abuse, abuse, adoption, covert, multiplicity, sexual assault | Tagged: abuse, chaotic family, complex PTSD, covert abuse, disfunctional family, Dissociation, Dissociative Identity Disorder, emotional abuse, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, New Therapist, PTSD, sexual abuse, sexual assault, Trauma, Verbal abuse | 2 Comments »
Posted on September 14, 2008 by MeMyself&Who
Is it official now that I’m part of the blog world? I got my first troll! I know I probably shouldn’t be as excited but… I’m cracking up. I really don’t get it, people really have nothing better to do? *Sigh* and people think I have problems, I really kinda pity people who [...]
Filed under: Boundaries, Just life, PTSD, Therapy, Trauma, Triggers, Verbal abuse, abuse, defective, multiplicity | Tagged: abuse, al anon, blogging, complex PTSD, defective, internet troll, Just life, PTSD, survivor, Verbal abuse | 2 Comments »
Posted on July 26, 2008 by MeMyself&Who
Ok, trying to deal with some intense rapid switching here. I had to “check out” for a bit. Trying to deal with a monster headache to top it off.
I should have taken the hint earlier …
Ok, I’m not starting this right. I got to talking with my mom just a meandering conversation. I should have [...]
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Posted on July 17, 2008 by MeMyself&Who
Just a post before the Remeron kicks in and knocks us out.
It’s been a long and upsetting day and night. The day started out bad with a note left to me. It set off a lot of triggers. It set off a bad SI session that ended in us being close to fainting, I think [...]
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Posted on July 5, 2008 by MeMyself&Who
I think I’ve struggled with this more than maybe I realize. It comes up now and then but, I think sometimes it comes up and I don’t really realize what it is…
I think what I struggle a lot with is these conflicting ideas about family. About my family. On one hand I’m more willing to [...]
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