Fragments, Rough Nights, & Dreams

Update: There are our worry dolls so far. I kind of like them without the faces but dunno. Usually when doing anything with people we don’t do a face.  On these sometimes it smudges (even though it’s permanent ink, it’s hard to do that small. I might redo the Little One doll wasn’t really sure [...]

First EMDR Processing Session, “Birth” of an Other & Update

So, long time, no write. Yeah, it’s been busy for me working, planning out my life, therapy, life drama, etc.  I’m looking through my drafts box here and WHOA! There are several things I’m not sure I posted but look like I should have.  I’ll have to sort that out some other time though.  I [...]

Where I went “wrong”

I think I figured it out today, where I went “wrong” (see the clip).  The one “wrong” thing I did. I trusted. I think I’m slowly learning to live with that. It feels so horribly slow though sometimes, I get so frustrated with my trust issues. It hurts and it’s scary but slowly I’m learning [...]

Layers Upon Layers of Onion

I’ve mentioned to a lot of people that I’m super curious about how other multiple systems work. It’s just so fascinating to me how we can be so different from one another and often so similar having never met, having never talked to a soul about our world until we got into therapy or met [...]

Apparently Normal People

So, things are…meh.  Don’t feel like talking.  I am at the moment just kind of forcing myself to type this, not really sure why other than to say…I’m still here.  Plus I said I would say something about this new map I’m working on. Well, maybe I’ll throw in a few other things.  Funny I [...]

Sponge Brain Regular Pants

I was going to say no pants since my brain doesn’t wear pants…that I’m aware of. Anyway, back from my therapy session and there is so much to say.  The problem is me though…my brain is killing me! One of the really hard parts for me is wanting to learn and my insiders wanting me [...]

Long day, long night

I should sleep. Been going to bed late for the past few nights. I just am feeling all screwed up body clockwise/bodywise in general tonight. I did some more EMDR today er…yesterday now. Strengthening some system connections so, it was pretty much after that that things felt screwy.  Not necessarily in a bad way just [...]

Here am I, somewhere

Been taking a bit of a rest. Keeping this short because it’s taking me a lot of energy to get thoughts through. Just thinking about somethings my mom has said recently and a question posed on a site. The question was about what where your first words. Got me to thinking about how I always [...]

Window Cleaning

Been having major probs with the eyes.  Can hardly read anything because they are blurry all the time.  Allergy eye drops don’t really help most of the time so, chalking it up to co- …. multi-fronting ha! Uh, so, …yeah, not been around much.  Lots going on, lots to say, lots to share but, haven’t [...]

Therapy – The right fit

I started to write a response to a post by Dr. Kathleen Young on What Makes a Good Fit in therapy and realized I was gonna get pretty wordy.  I don’t usually do this kind of thing and actually I think I kind of wrote about it on my “Into the Darkness” blog on LiveJournal [...]