When Protectors Attack

Oh, life goes crazy! I hate that feeling of this can’t be real, this can’t be my life right now. It feels like some crazy t.v. show. My mom and I got into a huge fight. I told her I needed some space, I needed to eat, I’d talk later. She kept pushing. God, I [...]

Long Over Due

Hey everyone! Sorry, I’ve been so out of touch. Thank you to everyone that still comments.  Sorry, it takes so long for me to publish them or reply.  Sorry, I haven’t visited a lot of blogs in awhile or I guess I do visit but I often don’t get a second to comment.  I still [...]

Post on hold

Won’t get to that post today. Having a rough day. Not sure when I’ll get to finishing it up. Went off to my appointment today and while I was looking both ways before crossing the street I thought I saw my grandma (a.k.a grammy – mom’s mom). Which is kinda dumb she’s been dead 17 [...]

Fragments, Rough Nights, & Dreams

Update: There are our worry dolls so far. I kind of like them without the faces but dunno. Usually when doing anything with people we don’t do a face.  On these sometimes it smudges (even though it’s permanent ink, it’s hard to do that small. I might redo the Little One doll wasn’t really sure [...]

Eidetic Memory and Trauma

Hi all! Oh my gosh I’m posting! Yeah, I’m finally getting around to posting again for tonight anyway.  So if anyone is still checking in on this “Hi again!” Things have been so crazy, and super busy for me.  I hardly get a minute and when I do, I try to just take sometime out [...]

Off the Radar

I’m struggling pretty badly as of late. I’m being bombarded by to many new things and am not used to that anymore.  I mean I don’t know how to handle that kind of thing, maybe I didn’t the last time though either. I’m not sure when this stuff got kicked up but at one point [...]

Where I went “wrong”

I think I figured it out today, where I went “wrong” (see the clip).  The one “wrong” thing I did. I trusted. I think I’m slowly learning to live with that. It feels so horribly slow though sometimes, I get so frustrated with my trust issues. It hurts and it’s scary but slowly I’m learning [...]

Day of the Dead

**could trigger  Dark Alters, SI, general anger at everyone, mother shit, oh cursing possibly** Pretty sure Dth is back. So We’re shit up a creek if he really is. not sure how he got out. sorry typin one handed because well…. Pretty sure we’re dead. Yup can’t feel so gotta be dead. still bleed…it was [...]

Sponge Brain Regular Pants

I was going to say no pants since my brain doesn’t wear pants…that I’m aware of. Anyway, back from my therapy session and there is so much to say.  The problem is me though…my brain is killing me! One of the really hard parts for me is wanting to learn and my insiders wanting me [...]

Summer boredom & “MPD Psycho”

Well, made it through blogathon.  It was really great, still getting caught up with a few other bloggers I was interested in reading.  One of the hard things was not talking about DID.  Since I was blogging on my general survivor site and that’s not something I care to reveal there since I do let [...]