Taking Another Step Toward Trust

I’ve been so ‘crazy’ this last week, there is so much I want to get caught up on and comment on here! Today I ran around with errands so I didn’t get to start in on this stuff like I wanted to until now.
I’ll start with a post about my appointment first.  After talking about [...]

Second Round, Part Two

Ok, here I go with my thoughts on the second episode of “United States of Tara”.  A friend text messaged me Sunday with the line from that opening scene, the one about DID being like hosting a kegger.  I cracked up and remembered a few of our ‘fine’ moments, yup I could agree with that [...]

Getting into the Meat

This week I had my appointment on Monday which ended up really great, I needed the day to chill.
Just started out with saying that things have gone back to usual for the most part with my mom and I.  We aren’t really talking but I’m less angry.  I still feel like I’m walking on egg [...]

Showtimes show dealing with DID

I don’t know if I’ve said anything here about the new show airing this Sunday on Showtime called the “United States of Tara” or not?  I posted many months ago in other places about it but I have no clue if I wrote anything in this blog so if not here it goes.  I’m one [...]

First Venture into EMDR

Ugh I was really hoping to be back with it this weekend a bit more but guess what?! I’m now working on getting rid of a 4th virus! 2 colds, the ear virus, and now a throat thing! So excuse me if I am way more out of it than usual! I took a Benadryl [...]

Quick Post to Share a Book for Kids

I was browsing around for some new books and thought I’d check and see if there is anything from the Sidran Institute I wanted (my therapist has been copying stuff for me to read each week out of “Growing Beyond Survival” I like it a lot but little too $$ for me right now).  Well, [...]

The third visit

Ok, I’m gonna try and get through this thing but a certain someone in my family is making a whole lot of noise and it’s really distracting!!
I went to my third therapy appointment today, covered a lot.  I had a hard time handing over the DES sheets but I did.  I hesitated if she asked [...]

Security Blankets

I wrote a post over on my LiveJournal Blog (link on left panel: Into the Darkness), not sure why now I put it over there lol.  Anyway, it was on trauma as a security blanket.  Sounds weird maybe but I realize that sometimes I’m really afriad of what healing might mean, fear of the unknown.  [...]

Hope it’s not a pink cloud

I just got back from my new therapist…and…I really think this could be it.  She was really nice and ok, I know this sounds maybe wierd but she has STUFF in her office!! lol! No that was the one thing that creeped me out a bit about my last therapist was there was literally nothing [...]

Battle of the weird

I still don’t feel right today.  I did take my medication last night, maybe it’s just the grogginess?  I feel like I’m floating though, I hate that.  I feel like my hands are buzzing, weird huh? Head feels like there’s a bunch of bees caught in a big wad of cotton.  Feel like I’m some [...]