Summer boredom & “MPD Psycho”

Well, made it through blogathon.  It was really great, still getting caught up with a few other bloggers I was interested in reading.  One of the hard things was not talking about DID.  Since I was blogging on my general survivor site and that’s not something I care to reveal there since I do let [...]

Maybe I’m a horrible child, maybe just blowing this up.

Lots of times I wonder just what the hell I did wrong to get the response I did from my family.  Lots of times I think maybe I’m just blowing things out of proportion, lots of times I think that’s what others will say too me.  I don’t talk about things because I get the [...]

Can I trade in my mother?

I’m having a difficult moment.  The day has been really rough. This is really the most present day I’ve had since last Tuesday and right now I’m trying to just find that little hiding niche right now because I’m just so exhausted from today.  The last few minutes have been really difficult due to mom [...]

I’m sorry random post

I have to get this off my chest.  I’ve been holding onto this too long and I still can’t stop laughing or wondering about it.
Everyone in my immediate family talks to them self (selves ?) EXCEPT my dad.
I have caught my mother, I’ve caught my brother, and when she was still alive, my grandmother.  All [...]

Relationships: Men vs. Women

I woke up thinking about this subject for some reason but can’t remember what started it.  I was just aware I was thinking about how I’m so much closer to men than I am to women.  I don’t freak out if a guy wants to give me a hug but I spend so much time [...]

When Others Worry & the Truth About Stranger Danger

I really cannot stand when other people worry about my safety.  I was having a pretty good start to the day and then I went to open an email from my dad.  I’m not sure if I posted it here or else where but, a while back a person he knew was attacked while out [...]

Getting into the Meat

This week I had my appointment on Monday which ended up really great, I needed the day to chill.
Just started out with saying that things have gone back to usual for the most part with my mom and I.  We aren’t really talking but I’m less angry.  I still feel like I’m walking on egg [...]

Aftermath

I have all this stuff swirling around in my head (was struck down by what might be an inner ear virus causing extreme vertigo but that’s not the swirling ) today.  I thought maybe it was done swirling after I sorted out some feelings that popped up during a slight panic attack but, [...]

The third visit

Ok, I’m gonna try and get through this thing but a certain someone in my family is making a whole lot of noise and it’s really distracting!!
I went to my third therapy appointment today, covered a lot.  I had a hard time handing over the DES sheets but I did.  I hesitated if she asked [...]

Hope it’s not a pink cloud

I just got back from my new therapist…and…I really think this could be it.  She was really nice and ok, I know this sounds maybe wierd but she has STUFF in her office!! lol! No that was the one thing that creeped me out a bit about my last therapist was there was literally nothing [...]