When Protectors Attack

Oh, life goes crazy! I hate that feeling of this can’t be real, this can’t be my life right now. It feels like some crazy t.v. show. My mom and I got into a huge fight. I told her I needed some space, I needed to eat, I’d talk later. She kept pushing. God, I [...]

Post on hold

Won’t get to that post today. Having a rough day. Not sure when I’ll get to finishing it up. Went off to my appointment today and while I was looking both ways before crossing the street I thought I saw my grandma (a.k.a grammy – mom’s mom). Which is kinda dumb she’s been dead 17 [...]

Fragments, Rough Nights, & Dreams

Update: There are our worry dolls so far. I kind of like them without the faces but dunno. Usually when doing anything with people we don’t do a face.  On these sometimes it smudges (even though it’s permanent ink, it’s hard to do that small. I might redo the Little One doll wasn’t really sure [...]

First EMDR Processing Session, “Birth” of an Other & Update

So, long time, no write. Yeah, it’s been busy for me working, planning out my life, therapy, life drama, etc.  I’m looking through my drafts box here and WHOA! There are several things I’m not sure I posted but look like I should have.  I’ll have to sort that out some other time though.  I [...]

Off the Radar

I’m struggling pretty badly as of late. I’m being bombarded by to many new things and am not used to that anymore.  I mean I don’t know how to handle that kind of thing, maybe I didn’t the last time though either. I’m not sure when this stuff got kicked up but at one point [...]

Sponge Brain Regular Pants

I was going to say no pants since my brain doesn’t wear pants…that I’m aware of. Anyway, back from my therapy session and there is so much to say.  The problem is me though…my brain is killing me! One of the really hard parts for me is wanting to learn and my insiders wanting me [...]

Little bit more EMDR

Well someone else asked about this and I know I meant to update my own experiences so I thought I’d try again using the explanation I  gave this person as a jumping off point.  Here is what I said with a few tweaks thrown in to explain how DID fits in there (I was explaining [...]

Trauma Nightmares

I’ve been sleeping like the dead ever since last Friday’s vertigo episode.   I’ve been dreaming like crazy too!  I don’t know why but I tend to go on more episodes of dreaming living here than anywhere else.  I used to dream like crazy when I was a little kid, nightmares galore lots of times too.  [...]

Medical Update

I didn’t get to much updating on my links this weekend, I really just needed to rest. The vertigo I had back in November has been coming back on and off since then.  So definitely wasn’t a virus. Thought it might be my medication but definitely not that.  My one ear has been screwed up [...]

Failing to heed basic needs

* Ugh! I started this Tuesday and have been so tired I didn’t finish.  Don’t quite know why I start a post then don’t finish or feel like it’s not important so it ends up going to the draft monster! Therapy was really interesting today. Talked about a few things that have been on my [...]