Posted on September 20, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
I’m struggling pretty badly as of late. I’m being bombarded by to many new things and am not used to that anymore. I mean I don’t know how to handle that kind of thing, maybe I didn’t the last time though either.
I’m not sure when this stuff got kicked up but at one point while [...]
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Posted on April 16, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
I’ve been back from my appointment for several hours now and I’m just dead. Feels, once again, like there are so many things from the last few weeks I wanted to say but they always end up getting pushed back for something more urgent. I had a few things I wanted to talk to my [...]
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Posted on April 3, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
Does that include mentally as well as weather wise?
I’ve gotten through another March which was hellish but now it feels like there is this big emotional purge of all the things I was holding in about March. It’s like my brain goes ok, couldn’t think about that then so let’s figure it out now. I’ve [...]
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Posted on January 27, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
Sorry, not gonna get to the Tara post tonight.
That Remeron last night knocked me into next week lol! Seriously I shook myself out of sleep at 8:40 am thinking it was much later and I had missed my shrink appointment but thankfully, no. I just wanted to stay snug in bed (partly because it was [...]
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Posted on January 21, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
This week I had my appointment on Monday which ended up really great, I needed the day to chill.
Just started out with saying that things have gone back to usual for the most part with my mom and I. We aren’t really talking but I’m less angry. I still feel like I’m walking on egg [...]
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Posted on January 7, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
I have had so much to say but, been really in and out of it lately. Mostly was just getting over my last cold (horrible sore throat and no voice) then got mega confused around New Years. Anyway, I’ll have to see where I left off so I don’t repeat myself later. For now though, [...]
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Posted on November 11, 2008 by MeMyself&Who
At least one of my questions is now answered. I went to my appointment today we covered a lot but I was having trouble remembering crap again lol. I hate that when someone asks you a question and then asks for an example, I have so much trouble with that. Of course now I remember [...]
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Posted on November 11, 2008 by MeMyself&Who
I wrote a post over on my LiveJournal Blog (link on left panel: Into the Darkness), not sure why now I put it over there lol. Anyway, it was on trauma as a security blanket. Sounds weird maybe but I realize that sometimes I’m really afriad of what healing might mean, fear of the unknown. [...]
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Posted on October 21, 2008 by MeMyself&Who
Ugh, I finally finished that LiveJournal post. It’s here or the side link over there (Into the Darkness). I think I got kind of rambling on it, as usual ha!
Feeling like I’m zoning in and out and I’m really not liking this feeling. Been a while I think since it’s been this intense of a [...]
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Posted on September 3, 2008 by MeMyself&Who
Not doing well. Don’t even feel like writing. Don’t feel like sharing this but I guess I am anyway. Why I don’t know. I’d go take my pill and just knock out…that’s what I’d really like to do but, I have to get up and go to the doc’s tomorrow. I haven’t been taking it [...]
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