Post on hold

Won’t get to that post today. Having a rough day. Not sure when I’ll get to finishing it up. Went off to my appointment today and while I was looking both ways before crossing the street I thought I saw my grandma (a.k.a grammy – mom’s mom). Which is kinda dumb she’s been dead 17 [...]

Fragments, Rough Nights, & Dreams

Update: There are our worry dolls so far. I kind of like them without the faces but dunno. Usually when doing anything with people we don’t do a face.  On these sometimes it smudges (even though it’s permanent ink, it’s hard to do that small. I might redo the Little One doll wasn’t really sure [...]

Off the Radar

I’m struggling pretty badly as of late. I’m being bombarded by to many new things and am not used to that anymore.  I mean I don’t know how to handle that kind of thing, maybe I didn’t the last time though either. I’m not sure when this stuff got kicked up but at one point [...]

Another Tuesday

I’ve been back from my appointment for several hours now and I’m just dead.  Feels, once again, like there are so many things from the last few weeks I wanted to say but they always end up getting pushed back for something more urgent.  I had a few things I wanted to talk to my [...]

April showers bring May flowers

Does that include mentally as well as weather wise? I’ve gotten through another March which was hellish but now it feels like there is this big emotional purge of all the things I was holding in about March.  It’s like my brain goes ok, couldn’t think about that then so let’s figure it out now.  [...]

On to Round Two or, at Least One Part

Sorry, not gonna get to the Tara post tonight. That Remeron last night knocked me into next week lol! Seriously I shook myself out of sleep at 8:40 am thinking it was much later and I had missed my shrink appointment but thankfully, no.  I just wanted to stay snug in bed (partly because it [...]

Getting into the Meat

This week I had my appointment on Monday which ended up really great, I needed the day to chill. Just started out with saying that things have gone back to usual for the most part with my mom and I.  We aren’t really talking but I’m less angry.  I still feel like I’m walking on [...]

Tetris Anyone?

I have had so much to say but, been really in and out of it lately.  Mostly was just getting over my last cold (horrible sore throat and no voice) then got mega confused around New Years.  Anyway, I’ll have to see where I left off so I don’t repeat myself later.  For now though, [...]

The answer to my question

At least one of my questions is now answered. I went to my appointment today we covered a lot but I was having trouble remembering crap again lol. I hate that when someone asks you a question and then asks for an example, I have so much trouble with that.  Of course now I remember [...]

Security Blankets

I wrote a post over on my LiveJournal Blog (link on left panel: Into the Darkness), not sure why now I put it over there lol.  Anyway, it was on trauma as a security blanket.  Sounds weird maybe but I realize that sometimes I’m really afriad of what healing might mean, fear of the unknown.  [...]