RAINN has a great new Online Hotline that provides free, live and confidential help, 24/7. It doesn't matter if the assault took place yesterday, last year, or 10 years ago, they are there to help anyone who has been affected by sexual violence.
 | Susan Eisler on Leave General ? or Commen… |
 | crystallball7 on Leave General ? or Commen… |
 | free2bwe on Post on hold |
 | dmtorbi on About Me |
 | Lothlorien on Fragments, Rough Nights, &… |
Hey everyone! Sorry, I’ve been so out of touch. Thank you to everyone that still comments. Sorry, it takes so long for me to publish them or reply. Sorry, I haven’t visited a lot of blogs in awhile or I guess I do visit but I often don’t get a second to comment. I still [...]
Filed under: EMDR, family, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, updates | Tagged: EMDR, family, update | Leave a Comment »
I was going to say no pants since my brain doesn’t wear pants…that I’m aware of. Anyway, back from my therapy session and there is so much to say. The problem is me though…my brain is killing me! One of the really hard parts for me is wanting to learn and my insiders wanting me [...]
Filed under: abandonment, abuse, adoption, complex PTSD, defective, Dissociation, Dissociative, Dissociative Identity Disorder, family, Mom, Multiplicity, PTSD, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, Therapy, Trauma | Tagged: abandonment, abandonment issues, adoption, adoption issues, C-PTSD, complex PTSD, DID, Dissociative, Dissociative Identity Disorder, EMDR, inner parts, mapping, multiple, multiplicity, PTSD | 2 Comments »
Does that include mentally as well as weather wise? I’ve gotten through another March which was hellish but now it feels like there is this big emotional purge of all the things I was holding in about March. It’s like my brain goes ok, couldn’t think about that then so let’s figure it out now. [...]
Filed under: Dissociation, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Flashback, Internal Conversations, Just life, Multiplicity, PTSD, Self-Harm, SI, Therapy, Trauma, Triggers | Leave a Comment »
I really cannot stand when other people worry about my safety. I was having a pretty good start to the day and then I went to open an email from my dad. I’m not sure if I posted it here or else where but, a while back a person he knew was attacked while out [...]
Filed under: Dissociation, Just life, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, PTSD, Self-Harm, sexual assault, Triggers | Tagged: anger, assault, assault with deadly weapon, Dissociation, family, frustration, hypervigilance, PTSD, safety, Self-Harm, sexual assault, stranger danger, survivor, victim, worry | Leave a Comment »
Ugh! My immune system is getting quite a workout! I had a cold a few months ago, then the inner ear virus (yup, just a virus. Heard many other people were battling that nasty thing too! whew!), and now a week later…I have a nasty cold again! Going back on a little echinacea regimen. Seems [...]
Filed under: Just life, PTSD, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, SI, Therapy, Trauma, Triggers | Tagged: birthdays, disfunctional family, Fall, family, frustration, Just life, life altering events, New Therapist, PTSD, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, Trauma | Leave a Comment »
This subject has come up a bit with people in the last couple days. I’ve been put in the role of supporter for so long but I have no clue how to ask others for help and support. In some areas I’m getting better but some …eh not so much. I always feel like I’m [...]
Filed under: abuse, Boundaries, covert, Just life, PTSD, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, SI, Trauma, Triggers | Tagged: al anon, anger, chaotic family, complex PTSD, disfunctional family, emotional abuse, emotional incest, emotions, feeling, Friends, frustration, New Therapist, PTSD, Support, Trauma | 3 Comments »
Well I guess it’s offically 102 days later now. I’m pretty sure July 17th was my last SI day. I’ve tried hard not to even keep track of time in relation to that but I’m struggling so hard right now not to go back to it. I’m growing more and more frustrated. I get like [...]
Filed under: Just life, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, NPD, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, SI, Triggers | Tagged: anger, birthdays, family, Fibromyalgia, frustration, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, New Therapist, PTSD, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, Self-Injury urge, SI, tired, Triggers | 2 Comments »
Ugh, I finally finished that LiveJournal post. It’s here or the side link over there (Into the Darkness). I think I got kind of rambling on it, as usual ha! Feeling like I’m zoning in and out and I’m really not liking this feeling. Been a while I think since it’s been this intense of [...]
Filed under: abuse, Boundaries, covert, Dissociation, Flashback, Just life, PTSD, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, SI, Therapy, Trauma | Tagged: anti-depressants, blogging, covert abuse, Dissociation, Just life, memories, New Therapist, PTSD, Remeron, Self-Injury urge, SI, update | Leave a Comment »
Well, I’m feeling a lot better…finally! I started in on that post on my LiveJournal (Into the Darkness) blog and I should finish maybe tomorrow. It’s pretty much done I just have to somehow get through the last part, I put the roughest part for me at the end and I’m kind of stuck on [...]
Filed under: Just life, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, SI, Trauma, Triggers | Tagged: blogging, SI, Triggers, update | Leave a Comment »
Not doing well. Don’t even feel like writing. Don’t feel like sharing this but I guess I am anyway. Why I don’t know. I’d go take my pill and just knock out…that’s what I’d really like to do but, I have to get up and go to the doc’s tomorrow. I haven’t been taking it [...]
Filed under: abuse, body memory, Dissociation, Flashback, PTSD, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, Trauma, Triggers | Tagged: anniversaries, body memory, death, Depression, Dissociation, Dissociative, Fall, Flashback, PTSD, September, Trauma, Triggers | Leave a Comment »
