Day of the Dead

**could trigger  Dark Alters, SI, general anger at everyone, mother shit, oh cursing possibly**
Pretty sure Dth is back. So We’re shit up a creek if he really is. not sure how he got out.
sorry typin one handed because well….
Pretty sure we’re dead. Yup can’t feel so gotta be dead. still bleed…it was an accident…but dont [...]

Sponge Brain Regular Pants

I was going to say no pants since my brain doesn’t wear pants…that I’m aware of.
Anyway, back from my therapy session and there is so much to say.  The problem is me though…my brain is killing me! One of the really hard parts for me is wanting to learn and my insiders wanting me to [...]

Maybe I’m a horrible child, maybe just blowing this up.

Lots of times I wonder just what the hell I did wrong to get the response I did from my family.  Lots of times I think maybe I’m just blowing things out of proportion, lots of times I think that’s what others will say too me.  I don’t talk about things because I get the [...]

Can I trade in my mother?

I’m having a difficult moment.  The day has been really rough. This is really the most present day I’ve had since last Tuesday and right now I’m trying to just find that little hiding niche right now because I’m just so exhausted from today.  The last few minutes have been really difficult due to mom [...]

My struggles with comparison

Well, I wanted to sleep in but my allergies decided to attack me instead.  So here I am hoping this allergy medication would knock me back out again and instead I find myself dwelling on the day, getting into things I shouldn’t.  I don’t know why I do this to myself, get into things that [...]

April showers bring May flowers

Does that include mentally as well as weather wise?
I’ve gotten through another March which was hellish but now it feels like there is this big emotional purge of all the things I was holding in about March.  It’s like my brain goes ok, couldn’t think about that then so let’s figure it out now.  I’ve [...]

March again

Not doing well but, not doing horribly either.  Things are just rough it’s a hard time because a certain event that happened years ago (which would tie into another event a year after that).  Things start getting hard in February  and just keep going till the end of March.  On occasion I catch the thought [...]

Desperate for Sleep, Desperately Hating Sleep

I didn’t get to sleep until about 3:30 am last night.  I’m not sure when exactly it was that everything came closing in on me but I was already to go to bed when it did.  I think maybe it started with an SI urge then went from there.  Well, I mean that’s not were [...]

Update – Playing Catch Up

Ugh! My immune system is getting quite a workout! I had a cold a few months ago, then the inner ear virus (yup, just a virus. Heard many other people were battling that nasty thing too! whew!), and now a week later…I have a nasty cold again! Going back on a little echinacea regimen.
Seems like [...]

Support

This subject has come up a bit with people in the last couple days.  I’ve been put in the role of supporter for so long but I have no clue how to ask others for help and support.  In some areas I’m getting better but some …eh not so much.  I always feel like I’m [...]