Posted on July 29, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
**could trigger Dark Alters, SI, general anger at everyone, mother shit, oh cursing possibly**
Pretty sure Dth is back. So We’re shit up a creek if he really is. not sure how he got out.
sorry typin one handed because well….
Pretty sure we’re dead. Yup can’t feel so gotta be dead. still bleed…it was an accident…but dont [...]
Filed under: Dissociative Identity Disorder, Mom, Multiplicity, SI, Self-Injury, Verbal abuse, abandonment, defective, family | Tagged: anger, blame, Dark Alter, death, emotional neglect, mother, punishment, self-worth, SI, worthlessness | 2 Comments »
Posted on July 1, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
I’m having a difficult moment. The day has been really rough. This is really the most present day I’ve had since last Tuesday and right now I’m trying to just find that little hiding niche right now because I’m just so exhausted from today. The last few minutes have been really difficult due to mom [...]
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Posted on May 10, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
Well, I wanted to sleep in but my allergies decided to attack me instead. So here I am hoping this allergy medication would knock me back out again and instead I find myself dwelling on the day, getting into things I shouldn’t. I don’t know why I do this to myself, get into things that [...]
Filed under: Dissociative Identity Disorder, Just life, Multiplicity, SI, Self-Injury, Trauma, Triggers, abandonment, adoption, defective | Tagged: DID, adoption, adoption issues, complex PTSD, cycle of abuse, Dissociative Identity Disorder, emotional abuse, feeling, Self-Injury, Dysfunctional family, feeling trapped, "normal", competition, competing, rejection, hopeless | 1 Comment »
Posted on April 3, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
Does that include mentally as well as weather wise?
I’ve gotten through another March which was hellish but now it feels like there is this big emotional purge of all the things I was holding in about March. It’s like my brain goes ok, couldn’t think about that then so let’s figure it out now. I’ve [...]
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Posted on March 7, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
Not doing well but, not doing horribly either. Things are just rough it’s a hard time because a certain event that happened years ago (which would tie into another event a year after that). Things start getting hard in February and just keep going till the end of March. On occasion I catch the thought [...]
Filed under: Dissociation, Dissociative, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Just life, PTSD, SI, Self-Injury, Trauma, Triggers | Tagged: anti-depressants, co-conscious, Dissociation, Dissociative Identity Disorder, frustration, loss, memories, PTSD, Remeron, stress, tired, Trauma, trauma anniversary, Triggers | Leave a Comment »
Posted on January 26, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
I didn’t get to sleep until about 3:30 am last night. I’m not sure when exactly it was that everything came closing in on me but I was already to go to bed when it did. I think maybe it started with an SI urge then went from there. Well, I mean that’s not were [...]
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Posted on December 8, 2008 by MeMyself&Who
Ugh! My immune system is getting quite a workout! I had a cold a few months ago, then the inner ear virus (yup, just a virus. Heard many other people were battling that nasty thing too! whew!), and now a week later…I have a nasty cold again! Going back on a little echinacea regimen.
Seems like [...]
Filed under: Just life, PTSD, SI, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, Therapy, Trauma, Triggers | Tagged: birthdays, disfunctional family, Fall, family, frustration, Just life, life altering events, New Therapist, PTSD, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, Trauma | Leave a Comment »
Posted on October 27, 2008 by MeMyself&Who
This subject has come up a bit with people in the last couple days. I’ve been put in the role of supporter for so long but I have no clue how to ask others for help and support. In some areas I’m getting better but some …eh not so much. I always feel like I’m [...]
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Posted on October 27, 2008 by MeMyself&Who
Well I guess it’s offically 102 days later now. I’m pretty sure July 17th was my last SI day. I’ve tried hard not to even keep track of time in relation to that but I’m struggling so hard right now not to go back to it. I’m growing more and more frustrated. I get like [...]
Filed under: Just life, NPD, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, SI, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, Triggers | Tagged: anger, birthdays, family, Fibromyalgia, frustration, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, New Therapist, PTSD, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, Self-Injury urge, SI, tired, Triggers | 2 Comments »
Posted on October 21, 2008 by MeMyself&Who
Ugh, I finally finished that LiveJournal post. It’s here or the side link over there (Into the Darkness). I think I got kind of rambling on it, as usual ha!
Feeling like I’m zoning in and out and I’m really not liking this feeling. Been a while I think since it’s been this intense of a [...]
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