Posted on September 10, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
I think I figured it out today, where I went “wrong” (see the clip). The one “wrong” thing I did.
I trusted.
I think I’m slowly learning to live with that. It feels so horribly slow though sometimes, I get so frustrated with my trust issues. It hurts and it’s scary but slowly I’m learning trust is [...]
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Posted on July 11, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
Just when everything seemed to get done the dreaded blackouts strike.
So here I am behind on a ton of things and I don’t have the energy or motivation to do it. Bottom of the cycle again.
I need to keep up with my paper journal better maybe that would help with some of the things I [...]
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Posted on May 30, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
Just popping in to update somethings real fast.
Added some more links. 2 was all I was up for, sorry.
Updated my About Me slightly.
Got hit with a third trauma nightmare last Tues morning. Was the worst one yet. Talking about it in therapy was weird.
Got my medical tests over with yesterday afternoon. Was not a good [...]
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Posted on May 22, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
I’ve been sleeping like the dead ever since last Friday’s vertigo episode. I’ve been dreaming like crazy too! I don’t know why but I tend to go on more episodes of dreaming living here than anywhere else. I used to dream like crazy when I was a little kid, nightmares galore lots of times too. [...]
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Posted on May 10, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
Well, I wanted to sleep in but my allergies decided to attack me instead. So here I am hoping this allergy medication would knock me back out again and instead I find myself dwelling on the day, getting into things I shouldn’t. I don’t know why I do this to myself, get into things that [...]
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Posted on April 16, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
I’ve been back from my appointment for several hours now and I’m just dead. Feels, once again, like there are so many things from the last few weeks I wanted to say but they always end up getting pushed back for something more urgent. I had a few things I wanted to talk to my [...]
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Posted on April 3, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
Does that include mentally as well as weather wise?
I’ve gotten through another March which was hellish but now it feels like there is this big emotional purge of all the things I was holding in about March. It’s like my brain goes ok, couldn’t think about that then so let’s figure it out now. I’ve [...]
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Posted on March 17, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
Feeling a little better but not completely sure if all of this is over or not. I’m hoping I actually post this and it doesn’t wind up in my draft box like so many posts. I’m really not sure where I wanted to start on this one except maybe to say what a rough day [...]
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Posted on March 7, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
Not doing well but, not doing horribly either. Things are just rough it’s a hard time because a certain event that happened years ago (which would tie into another event a year after that). Things start getting hard in February and just keep going till the end of March. On occasion I catch the thought [...]
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Posted on February 24, 2009 by MeMyself&Who
I am currently taking a break from …my break. I keep putting of posts and things but I need a time out especially after the last couple weeks. I’ve kind of identified a “new” trigger of mine which has to do with fragile people. I am pretty sure I did a post a while back [...]
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