Trying to post from chat client. Have ha…

Trying to post from chat client. Have had trouble figuring it out, doesn’t help I keep spelling crap wrong either. Hoping this works this time. So lazy! Will have a real update on things soon. Oops forgot to turn it on…that might help. Ok think it’s working now! Woohoo!

Going to bed early

Not been feeling well lately. Keep waking up with an upset stomach. Been rainy & kind of cold the last several days. Yay, headaches from the storms! Dunno which I hate more DID headaches or storm headaches… At least sometimes with a DID headache I can talk to the Others about why it’s going on [...]

Fear and Privacy

Slightly nervous that a certain phone call came into the house and a message was maybe left about a certain medical study I applied to.  I don’t think they would have left details but I’m feeling really scared maybe they did.  All I know is my mom said there was a message on the machine [...]

Some new questions

12 painted some last night and I don’t know, maybe that helped the wall of anger thing a bit.  This morning I woke up with some new questions: Was I ever left alone with [family member]? Was [family member] ever allowed to take care of me when I was little? Did [family member] ever stay [...]

Small Update

I’m kind of out with a cold again.  I really don’t feel like doing much so I’ve kind of given up on getting those posts from last week done.  So this is just gonna be a short boring post. Added in a book list today with LibraryThing. I wish I could use one of those [...]

I’m Sorry I’ve Been Mum on Tara but, I’m Really Lazy!

So, yeah I’m still kind of digesting and waiting to see how the next episode goes. I wanted to pass on this link to SecretShadows blog http://secretshadows.wordpress.com/2009/01/11/the-united-states-of-tara-initial-impression-from-one-who-has-did/ (sorry doing this in the new QuickPress..should be fixed now). I think she did a great job on her post (big thanks for posting up the video from [...]

The Mask of Insanity

I’m about to just loose it, if I haven’t started already. I felt it all just trying to bubble over and try to slip out of my hands. The funny thing is that even though I feel like I’m gonna loose it, the reference to insanity is not about me. I know there are other [...]

Oh, meant to say as well…

We’ve re-arranged somethings on here.  Still more changes to come I think. Soon going to try and make a blog for our art, it will be another section that’s open only to certain people. So, if anyone wants to see that section or any other section that’s open only to people we put on the [...]

I should be happy

Finished another painting tonight. The little kids started it and for the first time ever really, I was allowed to finish it. Usually I only get to watch because I always “F up” whatever is being done. It was cool because I was able to stay in the head space that I usually feel when [...]

Running in Circles

All my boxes finally got here. 3 got here yesterday and then the 9 huge ones got here this afternoon. I keep cleaning what I can out of my suitcases (so slow) putting it away, cleaning out file cabinet downstairs, clean out bathroom…just to put stuff from the boxes away. Then I think about how [...]