Sponge Brain Regular Pants

I was going to say no pants since my brain doesn’t wear pants…that I’m aware of. Anyway, back from my therapy session and there is so much to say.  The problem is me though…my brain is killing me! One of the really hard parts for me is wanting to learn and my insiders wanting me [...]

My struggles with comparison

Well, I wanted to sleep in but my allergies decided to attack me instead.  So here I am hoping this allergy medication would knock me back out again and instead I find myself dwelling on the day, getting into things I shouldn’t.  I don’t know why I do this to myself, get into things that [...]

Winner or Loser

I’m one of those survivors having a tough time with this weekend.  I suppose I’ve always been mixed up about this day but I think most of the time my feelings got blotted out/ignored.  A few years ago I started to realize how hard this Mother’s Day (Mothers) thing is for me because I have [...]

Failing to heed basic needs

* Ugh! I started this Tuesday and have been so tired I didn’t finish.  Don’t quite know why I start a post then don’t finish or feel like it’s not important so it ends up going to the draft monster! Therapy was really interesting today. Talked about a few things that have been on my [...]

Another Tuesday

I’ve been back from my appointment for several hours now and I’m just dead.  Feels, once again, like there are so many things from the last few weeks I wanted to say but they always end up getting pushed back for something more urgent.  I had a few things I wanted to talk to my [...]

27 years of anger

Holy…I was reading through some old post/comments wow I cannot spell for sh!t! haha! Anyway, I never did that post on guilt did I? I can’t remember very well the last time I posted, seems like I always have something I want to post and then I get ‘distracted’.  I got distracted on the way [...]

Picking up from last night

Here is the link to the article about stressful pregnancy and Fibromyalgia. So there’s that part of it. Then there is the whole part my last therapist was trying to get me to see. It’s only really clicking in now. It made sense before, I just couldn’t grasp that it applied to me though. I [...]

Sorting it out

I think this has all been one part body memory, one part sensory overload, and maybe one part a multiple things (yeah, in summary multiple things ) There is some weird lotion smell in my room right now that’s driving me up the wall. Can’t figure out where it’s coming from. All day smells have [...]

I thought today would be a good day

Woke up thinking about something that happened back around maybe preschool. I had a friend who was also adopted, she had some pretty big problems. Emotional problems (she’d become extremely violent).  She didn’t really have a lot of friends I gather and her parents were trying to get her help I think. Anyway been in [...]

Struggling With Balance

I think I’ve struggled with this more than maybe I realize. It comes up now and then but, I think sometimes it comes up and I don’t really realize what it is… I think what I struggle a lot with is these conflicting ideas about family. About my family. On one hand I’m more willing [...]