Getting into the Meat

This week I had my appointment on Monday which ended up really great, I needed the day to chill. Just started out with saying that things have gone back to usual for the most part with my mom and I.  We aren’t really talking but I’m less angry.  I still feel like I’m walking on [...]

The Mask of Insanity

I’m about to just loose it, if I haven’t started already. I felt it all just trying to bubble over and try to slip out of my hands. The funny thing is that even though I feel like I’m gonna loose it, the reference to insanity is not about me. I know there are other [...]

Update – Playing Catch Up

Ugh! My immune system is getting quite a workout! I had a cold a few months ago, then the inner ear virus (yup, just a virus. Heard many other people were battling that nasty thing too! whew!), and now a week later…I have a nasty cold again! Going back on a little echinacea regimen. Seems [...]

Aftermath

I have all this stuff swirling around in my head (was struck down by what might be an inner ear virus causing extreme vertigo but that’s not the swirling ) today.  I thought maybe it was done swirling after I sorted out some feelings that popped up during a slight panic attack but, now I’m [...]

Hope it’s not a pink cloud

I just got back from my new therapist…and…I really think this could be it.  She was really nice and ok, I know this sounds maybe wierd but she has STUFF in her office!! lol! No that was the one thing that creeped me out a bit about my last therapist was there was literally nothing [...]

Support

This subject has come up a bit with people in the last couple days.  I’ve been put in the role of supporter for so long but I have no clue how to ask others for help and support.  In some areas I’m getting better but some …eh not so much.  I always feel like I’m [...]

Battle of the weird

I still don’t feel right today.  I did take my medication last night, maybe it’s just the grogginess?  I feel like I’m floating though, I hate that.  I feel like my hands are buzzing, weird huh? Head feels like there’s a bunch of bees caught in a big wad of cotton.  Feel like I’m some [...]

Rescuers

I’ve been thinking about this for quite sometime, I’m not even sure how long or how it started really.  I guess I had been thinking about people, wondered why I thought about them so much. Then I started reading up on Complex PTSD and realized that it made sense.  It’s been hard for me to [...]