Eidetic Memory and Trauma

Hi all! Oh my gosh I’m posting! Yeah, I’m finally getting around to posting again for tonight anyway.  So if anyone is still checking in on this “Hi again!” Things have been so crazy, and super busy for me.  I hardly get a minute and when I do, I try to just take sometime out [...]

Where I went “wrong”

I think I figured it out today, where I went “wrong” (see the clip).  The one “wrong” thing I did. I trusted. I think I’m slowly learning to live with that. It feels so horribly slow though sometimes, I get so frustrated with my trust issues. It hurts and it’s scary but slowly I’m learning [...]

Summer boredom & “MPD Psycho”

Well, made it through blogathon.  It was really great, still getting caught up with a few other bloggers I was interested in reading.  One of the hard things was not talking about DID.  Since I was blogging on my general survivor site and that’s not something I care to reveal there since I do let [...]

Maybe I’m a horrible child, maybe just blowing this up.

Lots of times I wonder just what the hell I did wrong to get the response I did from my family.  Lots of times I think maybe I’m just blowing things out of proportion, lots of times I think that’s what others will say too me.  I don’t talk about things because I get the [...]

“Congratulations, you’re feeling”

Well, that was fun.  I woke up this morning thinking about everything that went on a few months ago with my mom and how my therapist was going to help me with a letter but I ended up not doing it cause I had until this morning numbed out my anger.  I don’t know if [...]

My struggles with comparison

Well, I wanted to sleep in but my allergies decided to attack me instead.  So here I am hoping this allergy medication would knock me back out again and instead I find myself dwelling on the day, getting into things I shouldn’t.  I don’t know why I do this to myself, get into things that [...]

Winner or Loser

I’m one of those survivors having a tough time with this weekend.  I suppose I’ve always been mixed up about this day but I think most of the time my feelings got blotted out/ignored.  A few years ago I started to realize how hard this Mother’s Day (Mothers) thing is for me because I have [...]

I’m sorry random post

I have to get this off my chest.  I’ve been holding onto this too long and I still can’t stop laughing or wondering about it. Everyone in my immediate family talks to them self (selves ?) EXCEPT my dad. I have caught my mother, I’ve caught my brother, and when she was still alive, my [...]

Another Tuesday

I’ve been back from my appointment for several hours now and I’m just dead.  Feels, once again, like there are so many things from the last few weeks I wanted to say but they always end up getting pushed back for something more urgent.  I had a few things I wanted to talk to my [...]

I’m Tired but…

I have to jump on this real quick because tomorrow I probably will “forget”.  I was browsing around with the tag surfer real quick and came across a blog with this link to an article about that United States of Tara show written by a professor Steven Gold.  “Will Showtime Series United States of Tara [...]