Off the Radar

I’m struggling pretty badly as of late. I’m being bombarded by to many new things and am not used to that anymore.  I mean I don’t know how to handle that kind of thing, maybe I didn’t the last time though either. I’m not sure when this stuff got kicked up but at one point [...]

Murphy’s law again

Just when everything seemed to get done the dreaded blackouts strike. So here I am behind on a ton of things and I don’t have the energy or motivation to do it.  Bottom of the cycle again. I need to keep up with my paper journal better maybe that would help with some of the [...]

“Congratulations, you’re feeling”

Well, that was fun.  I woke up this morning thinking about everything that went on a few months ago with my mom and how my therapist was going to help me with a letter but I ended up not doing it cause I had until this morning numbed out my anger.  I don’t know if [...]

March again

Not doing well but, not doing horribly either.  Things are just rough it’s a hard time because a certain event that happened years ago (which would tie into another event a year after that).  Things start getting hard in February  and just keep going till the end of March.  On occasion I catch the thought [...]

Time out

I am currently taking a break from …my break. I keep putting of posts and things but I need a time out especially after the last couple weeks.  I’ve kind of identified a “new” trigger of mine which has to do with fragile people.  I am pretty sure I did a post a while back [...]

Hannibal Lector Would Love Me Right Now

Cause my brain is FRIED! I am seriously about to give up and …I don’t know cry, crawl into bed and never get out, run away? I don’t know.  I’m just about to lose it that’s all I know.  The fibromyalgia is trying to kick my butt, the dissociation is trying to kick my butt [...]

When Others Worry & the Truth About Stranger Danger

I really cannot stand when other people worry about my safety.  I was having a pretty good start to the day and then I went to open an email from my dad.  I’m not sure if I posted it here or else where but, a while back a person he knew was attacked while out [...]

Update – Playing Catch Up

Ugh! My immune system is getting quite a workout! I had a cold a few months ago, then the inner ear virus (yup, just a virus. Heard many other people were battling that nasty thing too! whew!), and now a week later…I have a nasty cold again! Going back on a little echinacea regimen. Seems [...]

Security Blankets

I wrote a post over on my LiveJournal Blog (link on left panel: Into the Darkness), not sure why now I put it over there lol.  Anyway, it was on trauma as a security blanket.  Sounds weird maybe but I realize that sometimes I’m really afriad of what healing might mean, fear of the unknown.  [...]

Support

This subject has come up a bit with people in the last couple days.  I’ve been put in the role of supporter for so long but I have no clue how to ask others for help and support.  In some areas I’m getting better but some …eh not so much.  I always feel like I’m [...]