First EMDR Processing Session, “Birth” of an Other & Update

So, long time, no write. Yeah, it’s been busy for me working, planning out my life, therapy, life drama, etc.  I’m looking through my drafts box here and WHOA! There are several things I’m not sure I posted but look like I should have.  I’ll have to sort that out some other time though.  I [...]

Off the Radar

I’m struggling pretty badly as of late. I’m being bombarded by to many new things and am not used to that anymore.  I mean I don’t know how to handle that kind of thing, maybe I didn’t the last time though either. I’m not sure when this stuff got kicked up but at one point [...]

Summer boredom & “MPD Psycho”

Well, made it through blogathon.  It was really great, still getting caught up with a few other bloggers I was interested in reading.  One of the hard things was not talking about DID.  Since I was blogging on my general survivor site and that’s not something I care to reveal there since I do let [...]

Trauma Nightmares

I’ve been sleeping like the dead ever since last Friday’s vertigo episode.   I’ve been dreaming like crazy too!  I don’t know why but I tend to go on more episodes of dreaming living here than anywhere else.  I used to dream like crazy when I was a little kid, nightmares galore lots of times too.  [...]

Winner or Loser

I’m one of those survivors having a tough time with this weekend.  I suppose I’ve always been mixed up about this day but I think most of the time my feelings got blotted out/ignored.  A few years ago I started to realize how hard this Mother’s Day (Mothers) thing is for me because I have [...]

27 years of anger

Holy…I was reading through some old post/comments wow I cannot spell for sh!t! haha! Anyway, I never did that post on guilt did I? I can’t remember very well the last time I posted, seems like I always have something I want to post and then I get ‘distracted’.  I got distracted on the way [...]

March again

Not doing well but, not doing horribly either.  Things are just rough it’s a hard time because a certain event that happened years ago (which would tie into another event a year after that).  Things start getting hard in February  and just keep going till the end of March.  On occasion I catch the thought [...]

Getting into the Meat

This week I had my appointment on Monday which ended up really great, I needed the day to chill. Just started out with saying that things have gone back to usual for the most part with my mom and I.  We aren’t really talking but I’m less angry.  I still feel like I’m walking on [...]

Tetris Anyone?

I have had so much to say but, been really in and out of it lately.  Mostly was just getting over my last cold (horrible sore throat and no voice) then got mega confused around New Years.  Anyway, I’ll have to see where I left off so I don’t repeat myself later.  For now though, [...]

First Venture into EMDR

Ugh I was really hoping to be back with it this weekend a bit more but guess what?! I’m now working on getting rid of a 4th virus! 2 colds, the ear virus, and now a throat thing! So excuse me if I am way more out of it than usual! I took a Benadryl [...]