First EMDR Processing Session, “Birth” of an Other & Update

So, long time, no write. Yeah, it’s been busy for me working, planning out my life, therapy, life drama, etc.  I’m looking through my drafts box here and WHOA! There are several things I’m not sure I posted but look like I should have.  I’ll have to sort that out some other time though.  I [...]

Eidetic Memory and Trauma

Hi all! Oh my gosh I’m posting! Yeah, I’m finally getting around to posting again for tonight anyway.  So if anyone is still checking in on this “Hi again!” Things have been so crazy, and super busy for me.  I hardly get a minute and when I do, I try to just take sometime out [...]

Hello, again!

That was a creative title. Anyway, I’ve been without a computer for all this time! My laptop was giving out somewhere around that last post and then shortly after that I guess it just totally went to hell. Didn’t seem like it was worth it to try and fix, 3 yrs old figure more was [...]

Sponge Brain Regular Pants

I was going to say no pants since my brain doesn’t wear pants…that I’m aware of. Anyway, back from my therapy session and there is so much to say.  The problem is me though…my brain is killing me! One of the really hard parts for me is wanting to learn and my insiders wanting me [...]

Trauma Nightmares

I’ve been sleeping like the dead ever since last Friday’s vertigo episode.   I’ve been dreaming like crazy too!  I don’t know why but I tend to go on more episodes of dreaming living here than anywhere else.  I used to dream like crazy when I was a little kid, nightmares galore lots of times too.  [...]

March again

Not doing well but, not doing horribly either.  Things are just rough it’s a hard time because a certain event that happened years ago (which would tie into another event a year after that).  Things start getting hard in February  and just keep going till the end of March.  On occasion I catch the thought [...]

Relationships: Men vs. Women

I woke up thinking about this subject for some reason but can’t remember what started it.  I was just aware I was thinking about how I’m so much closer to men than I am to women.  I don’t freak out if a guy wants to give me a hug but I spend so much time [...]

When Others Worry & the Truth About Stranger Danger

I really cannot stand when other people worry about my safety.  I was having a pretty good start to the day and then I went to open an email from my dad.  I’m not sure if I posted it here or else where but, a while back a person he knew was attacked while out [...]

Getting into the Meat

This week I had my appointment on Monday which ended up really great, I needed the day to chill. Just started out with saying that things have gone back to usual for the most part with my mom and I.  We aren’t really talking but I’m less angry.  I still feel like I’m walking on [...]

The Mask of Insanity

I’m about to just loose it, if I haven’t started already. I felt it all just trying to bubble over and try to slip out of my hands. The funny thing is that even though I feel like I’m gonna loose it, the reference to insanity is not about me. I know there are other [...]