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That was a creative title. Anyway, I’ve been without a computer for all this time! My laptop was giving out somewhere around that last post and then shortly after that I guess it just totally went to hell. Didn’t seem like it was worth it to try and fix, 3 yrs old figure more was [...]
Filed under: Just life, updates | Tagged: complex PTSD, Flashback, Just life, PTSD, Self-Injury, Trauma, update | 2 Comments »
Well someone else asked about this and I know I meant to update my own experiences so I thought I’d try again using the explanation I gave this person as a jumping off point. Here is what I said with a few tweaks thrown in to explain how DID fits in there (I was explaining [...]
Filed under: Dissociation, Dissociative Identity Disorder, family, Internal Conversations, Multiplicity, PTSD, Therapy, Trauma | Tagged: Dissociation, Dissociative Identity Disorder, EMDR, emotions, exhaustion, inner parts, inner world, internal converstations, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, Therapy, tired, Trauma | Leave a Comment »
I’m having a difficult moment. The day has been really rough. This is really the most present day I’ve had since last Tuesday and right now I’m trying to just find that little hiding niche right now because I’m just so exhausted from today. The last few minutes have been really difficult due to mom [...]
Filed under: family, Mom, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, NPD, Self-Injury, SI, Therapy, Trauma | Tagged: anger, basic needs, co-fronting, dysthymia, emotional abuse, emotional neglect, emotions, feeling trapped, grief, guilt, insanity, mom, mother, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, sad, Self-Injury, self-worth, SI, Support, switching, Therapy, Trauma, upset, Verbal abuse | Leave a Comment »
Well, I wanted to sleep in but my allergies decided to attack me instead. So here I am hoping this allergy medication would knock me back out again and instead I find myself dwelling on the day, getting into things I shouldn’t. I don’t know why I do this to myself, get into things that [...]
Filed under: abandonment, adoption, defective, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Just life, Multiplicity, Self-Injury, SI, Trauma, Triggers | Tagged: "normal", adoption, adoption issues, competing, competition, complex PTSD, cycle of abuse, DID, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Dysfunctional family, emotional abuse, feeling, feeling trapped, hopeless, rejection, Self-Injury | 1 Comment »
I’m about to just loose it, if I haven’t started already. I felt it all just trying to bubble over and try to slip out of my hands. The funny thing is that even though I feel like I’m gonna loose it, the reference to insanity is not about me. I know there are other [...]
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tagged: "insiders", anger, chaotic family, disfunctional family, Dissociative, family, insanity, mom, mothers, parents, PTSD, Self-Injury, Support, Trauma, Triggers, worthlessness | Leave a Comment »
Ugh! My immune system is getting quite a workout! I had a cold a few months ago, then the inner ear virus (yup, just a virus. Heard many other people were battling that nasty thing too! whew!), and now a week later…I have a nasty cold again! Going back on a little echinacea regimen. Seems [...]
Filed under: Just life, PTSD, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, SI, Therapy, Trauma, Triggers | Tagged: birthdays, disfunctional family, Fall, family, frustration, Just life, life altering events, New Therapist, PTSD, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, Trauma | Leave a Comment »
Well I guess it’s offically 102 days later now. I’m pretty sure July 17th was my last SI day. I’ve tried hard not to even keep track of time in relation to that but I’m struggling so hard right now not to go back to it. I’m growing more and more frustrated. I get like [...]
Filed under: Just life, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, NPD, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, SI, Triggers | Tagged: anger, birthdays, family, Fibromyalgia, frustration, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, New Therapist, PTSD, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, Self-Injury urge, SI, tired, Triggers | 2 Comments »
Just a post before the Remeron kicks in and knocks us out. It’s been a long and upsetting day and night. The day started out bad with a note left to me. It set off a lot of triggers. It set off a bad SI session that ended in us being close to fainting, I [...]
Filed under: abuse, Boundaries, Dissociation, Dissociative Identity Disorder, multiplicity, PTSD, Self-Injury, sexual assault, SI, Trauma, Triggers, Verbal abuse | Tagged: CSA, Dissociative Identity Disorder, dizzy, nausea, PTSD, Self-Injury, Self-Injury urge, sexual abuse, sexual assault, SI, Trauma, Triggers, Verbal abuse | Leave a Comment »
Woke up thinking about something that happened back around maybe preschool. I had a friend who was also adopted, she had some pretty big problems. Emotional problems (she’d become extremely violent). She didn’t really have a lot of friends I gather and her parents were trying to get her help I think. Anyway been in [...]
Filed under: abandonment, adoption, Blogs of ours, defective, Dissociation, Dissociative Identity Disorder, multiplicity, Self-Injury, SI, Trauma, Triggers | Tagged: abandonment issues, adoption, defective, Depression, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Self-Injury, SI | Leave a Comment »
