Day of the Dead

**could trigger  Dark Alters, SI, general anger at everyone, mother shit, oh cursing possibly** Pretty sure Dth is back. So We’re shit up a creek if he really is. not sure how he got out. sorry typin one handed because well…. Pretty sure we’re dead. Yup can’t feel so gotta be dead. still bleed…it was [...]

Can I trade in my mother?

I’m having a difficult moment.  The day has been really rough. This is really the most present day I’ve had since last Tuesday and right now I’m trying to just find that little hiding niche right now because I’m just so exhausted from today.  The last few minutes have been really difficult due to mom [...]

101 Days Later

Well I guess it’s offically 102 days later now.  I’m pretty sure July 17th was my last SI day.  I’ve tried hard not to even keep track of time in relation to that but I’m struggling so hard right now not to go back to it.  I’m growing more and more frustrated.  I get like [...]

Updates again

Ugh, I finally finished that LiveJournal post.  It’s here or the side link over there (Into the Darkness). I think I got kind of rambling on it, as usual ha! Feeling like I’m zoning in and out and I’m really not liking this feeling.  Been a while I think since it’s been this intense of  [...]

The latest

Well, I’m feeling a lot better…finally! I started in on that post on my LiveJournal (Into the Darkness) blog and I should finish maybe tomorrow.  It’s pretty much done I just have to somehow get through the last part, I put the roughest part for me at the end and I’m kind of stuck on [...]

Long and Upsetting Day/Night

Just a post before the Remeron kicks in and knocks us out. It’s been a long and upsetting day and night. The day started out bad with a note left to me. It set off a lot of triggers. It set off a bad SI session that ended in us being close to fainting, I [...]

I thought today would be a good day

Woke up thinking about something that happened back around maybe preschool. I had a friend who was also adopted, she had some pretty big problems. Emotional problems (she’d become extremely violent).  She didn’t really have a lot of friends I gather and her parents were trying to get her help I think. Anyway been in [...]

New and improved

Ok, maybe not so much improved yet but we finally have our art section up. It’s called The Art of Forgetting. The link is now in our Blogs For Our Insiders Section. I changed a few things for comments on this blog and that blog. Still trying to clean up categories and tags on this [...]