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Just when everything seemed to get done the dreaded blackouts strike. So here I am behind on a ton of things and I don’t have the energy or motivation to do it. Bottom of the cycle again. I need to keep up with my paper journal better maybe that would help with some of the [...]
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I’ve been back from my appointment for several hours now and I’m just dead. Feels, once again, like there are so many things from the last few weeks I wanted to say but they always end up getting pushed back for something more urgent. I had a few things I wanted to talk to my [...]
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Not doing well but, not doing horribly either. Things are just rough it’s a hard time because a certain event that happened years ago (which would tie into another event a year after that). Things start getting hard in February and just keep going till the end of March. On occasion I catch the thought [...]
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I’m about to just loose it, if I haven’t started already. I felt it all just trying to bubble over and try to slip out of my hands. The funny thing is that even though I feel like I’m gonna loose it, the reference to insanity is not about me. I know there are other [...]
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I don’t know if I’ve said anything here about the new show airing this Sunday on Showtime called the “United States of Tara” or not? I posted many months ago in other places about it but I have no clue if I wrote anything in this blog so if not here it goes. I’m one [...]
Filed under: Dissociation, multiplicity, Trauma, Triggers | Tagged: "insiders", DID, Dissociative Identity Disorder, healing, humor, inner parts, inner voices, inside voices, multiplicity, relationships, T.V. shows, Trauma, Triggers, United States of Tara | Leave a Comment »
Ugh I was really hoping to be back with it this weekend a bit more but guess what?! I’m now working on getting rid of a 4th virus! 2 colds, the ear virus, and now a throat thing! So excuse me if I am way more out of it than usual! I took a Benadryl [...]
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I wrote a post over on my LiveJournal Blog (link on left panel: Into the Darkness), not sure why now I put it over there lol. Anyway, it was on trauma as a security blanket. Sounds weird maybe but I realize that sometimes I’m really afriad of what healing might mean, fear of the unknown. [...]
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Well I guess it’s offically 102 days later now. I’m pretty sure July 17th was my last SI day. I’ve tried hard not to even keep track of time in relation to that but I’m struggling so hard right now not to go back to it. I’m growing more and more frustrated. I get like [...]
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Well, I’m feeling a lot better…finally! I started in on that post on my LiveJournal (Into the Darkness) blog and I should finish maybe tomorrow. It’s pretty much done I just have to somehow get through the last part, I put the roughest part for me at the end and I’m kind of stuck on [...]
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So my mom bought me this jacket a while ago while she was on vacation, I was really pissed off about it at first and I was really mixed up about it for a while. The jacket is a fleece jacket, it’s warm but light weight, it’s a zip up type, no hood, and lots [...]
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