Well I think I know how to get the recordings off the voice recorder but might take me a little longer to do it and get it done.
The whole thing with the little parts… ugh, yeah they are back in my head a lot of the time. It’s not as bad and finding the “baby monitor” system thing did help I think, the whole nanny thing still helps. I don’t know maybe it’s just really consistently using tools and resources that we have.
Did I mention I wrote a 3 page, front and back, letter to my shrink?! Yeah, I’ve been unconsciously procrastinating putting it in the mail. Today is the day, I swear as soon as I’m done with this, I’m gonna write a quick to do list and then pop that puppy in the mailbox.
I have a bunch of posts I need to work on, I always say that don’t I. I think I need a notebook for my post so I can just hand write if I need too. Sometimes, I don’t like trying to type on my phone and I get restless at the computer (even though I’m faster at typing). I don’t know. I’m still figuring out how to be a good blogger and do the D.I.D management thing. Is it just me or do they come out more in type. I mean, they come out in my handwriting for sure but…I don’t seem to get as distracted I don’t think. I can’t click away the page anyway. I tend to come up with things when I’m not at a computer too. I think I need to get better at keeping my daily issues recorded for myself so… I think it’s time for a new journal. Ha, I think I just want a new journal, I always want new journals.
Things I’d like to do more of:
- Thought recordings – yeah for some reason listening to my voice on those recordings didn’t bother me like it usually does. Maybe I wasn’t bothered because I had recorded them like I was speaking to someone?
- Journaling/Diary
- Letter writing.
My first post back on July 26th, 2007 https://insidevoices.wordpress.com/2007/07/26/i-dont-know-i-just-dont-know/
Man, roughly 6 years of my PTSD & D.I.D. diagnosis then too. I switched my living situation, I changed therapists a couple times, I’ve had one of my “worst”/abusive insiders do a complete 180 and he’s now learning to be a good helper part, I’ve learned a lot of symptom management, I’ve learned I can survive if I am in the same space with old abusers, I’ve learned how to set boundaries and stick to them, I’ve learned EMDR is hard but soooo worth it, I’ve learned how to trust friends, I’ve learned to trust and forgive myself, I’ve learned there is someone out there that will love me back even if I’m a little bruised up from my past, I’ve learned that yes I was affected by things that happened to me as a baby even if I don’t have the same kind of memory of those events as I have memory of things that happened when I was verbal, I’ve learned how I can stop self-injuring, I’ve learned I am DEFINITELY NOT CRAZY 🙂
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